This week, I've been in a terrible mood. I'm tired, cranky, and I need a break! I work with these kids all day long, and sometimes it feels like they may looking at me, but are not really listening. Fortunately, I don't take my horrible mood out on my students. Unfortunately, I do save all that awfulness for my husband. T has some major patience, and I'm sure with the pregnancy AND this job, it's being tested. When I get home, I just want to collapse on the couch, not think about anything, and bascially be alone(those kids have no sense of personal space).
Today, I came home in particularly sour mood. I not only wanted to be alone, but I wanted to be rude to T as well. T being confused (as he usually has been these past month since I've been pregnant) took me by the hand to our bedroom and we had a nice long talk. It made me feel a little better, but I was feeling pretty crummy.
I started to think about things from his point of view. He just wants to make me happy, and no matter what he does, he always the bad guy. I began to feel sorry for him, and embarrassed for my own behavior. It was then I decided he deserved something nice. So, I made him dinner. I just wanted to show him how much I love and appreciate him.
After we ate, I feel literally a hundred times better! It was like someone had lifted a weight from my shoulders. It was then I started to realize the power of service in our lives. I have been taught all my life to serve those around you selflessly. I had also learned the phrase, 'if you are feeling depressed, serve someone'. I knew this was all true, and I had seen this principle played out my life before, but I really needed the reminder.
In the Teachings of Presidents of the Church: Harold B. Lee; Chapter 14 it says: "Happiness comes from unselfish service. And happy homes are only those where there is a daily striving to make sacrifices for each other’s happiness." Today, the Lord certainly revealed this principle to me! I've decided I'm going to do something nice for T everyday, no matter how small. It will make everything in mine (and hopefully his) life better!
What a true principle! Since being pregnant, I've had to lower expectations of myself sometimes. At times I feel up and other times I feel down. When I feel good I get more done, but have to give myself a break when I don't feel great. I think its normal to be on a bit of a emotional roller coaster as a pregnant lady. Especially when you have those kids stressing you out everyday!
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